Update!

Hey, long time no talk!


Back to boring school life!
Tennis started last Tuesday, so that's reason enough for the delay in the new post... Well, that and I have no idea what im doing on here!

Im playing dubs again this year with my friend, we'll call her DP. We got the 4th spot this year! I really like getting to know all of my teammates... Most of them, anyway!

It was my friends birthday party on Saturday, she had a bonfire at her house and then a few of us stayed the night.. I enjoyed seeing a lot of my friend that I haven't seen over the summer, especially A-Bomb! She and I met in Confimation class in 6th grade, and we've been pretty close ever since. She lives in the next town over, and both of us being unable to drive doesn't give us much room for seeing eachother except for a select few times a year :(. I remember one year, for my 12 or 13th birthday, I was staying at her house for the weekend, and her family had thrown me a mini-birthday party! It was so nice, I'd never expected it! Ah, the good ole days...

Anyway, back to the present. I've recently realized how mean "friends" can be behind eachothers backs. Now, I am no stranger to gossip, she and I have had quite the times, but It's never the same story when you're on the other side of it (duh). See, I'm moving sometime this year for certain reasons that I won't get into, and a friend of mine is as well. Well, trying to help out my mother, I asked this friend if anyone else had bought the house that she's living in for when shes all moved out. She politely said wasn't sure and that they would be moving out in the middle of the month, so I should have my mother check it out. Little did I know, she was talking behind my back, saying that "I want to be her" because I had asked about the house, as well as I had said in a recent MySpace survey that one of my favorite foods were potatoes.... Now, call me a fool, but with a few billion people in the world, there has to be more than one person that enjoys potatoes, and that would also like to move into her h0use, does that mean that they neccessarily want to BE this girl? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Not only do I enjoy my life, but I wouldn't want to be a person that has to put their own "friends" for certain reasons unbeknownce to me. It really hurts me to think that I really, really thought this person was genuine and caring, and now she's letting me down.

Other than that, nothing really has changed. I can't believe school is about to start on September second! I have to wake up at 7:00 AM on Wednesday for Sophmore Orientation. Waking up at 11:00 in the afternoon everyday may not have been a very good idea... :) We also have pictures going on at Orientation, blah! This means I have to do my hair, put on MAKE-UP (ugh) and look presentable in a (wool - even more ugh!) sweater, in August, mind you! At least it's going to be in nice, gracious air conditioning :] I suppose I can just get my pictures taken quickly and then bring a shirt to change in. I AM super excited, however, to find out my classes! I really, really need to buckle down on my studies this year to get good enough grades to be able to take AP and Honors classes my Junior year. I've actually thought about the concept of studying for certain tests (meaning all tests) and concentrating in all classes (meaning no texting cute boys in Science and French). It seem stupid that I haven't been trying my hardest for all these years, I mean it's not like USC is going to just HAND OVER a scholarship to a girl from po dunk Wisconsin.

Enough worrying, now on to my love life (did I just say enough worrying.... wow)

Well, I kind-of-sort-of had this thing with a guy last year, and I really do like him! But he has this thing about telling people who he's dating, meaning he keeps it a secret. Totally dumb, I know! We talked about it before all the shenanigans started up, and he's all, "I'm not really ready to have all that pressure on a relationship with a girl by telling everyone that we're together" My thoughts on this? BS in the purest form possible. The way I respond to this is by saying what's the point in being with someone if no one knows?! When you look at it, having a boy or girlfriend in High School (or being above age 13) is kind of a big deal in someone's life. You talk, think, and work on it constantly, trying to work things out, make it better, make it stronger than it was yesterday. When you can't tell your BEST FRIENDS what's going on with you and whatshisname, it feels like you're lying to them, when you should be able to tell them anything and everything that's going on. I personally don't need someone in my life that's going to be embarrassed to be with me, It's humiliating. He's called me a few times over the summer, all of which I have ignored, or I've said I was about to wash my hair (at 4 in the morning... what's a girl to say?!) Who am I to judge though, right? Maybe (PLEASE, GOD) he's changed in three months (doubtful). Should I give him another chance? (can you even comment on these things?!)

anyway, my bed sheets are calling me! Away meet up north tomorrow, leaving at 7:45! Ugh.

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Happy life~

M